I searched it last night, it is St. Germain and the Violet Flame. It is for healing. I never liked mantra meditation myself, but it definately has it's merits. It does seep into your whole life, because you are learning to quiet the mind, and that is very important to see the whole picture.
I remember being where you are. You will find that you actually appreciate the time alone. The time to focus on yourself, although I think you already do.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
