I'm feeling a lot better about things today. My FIL was past last night and we had a really good chat. It was just general chat though and nothing serious. It was good to know that I could still laugh with him and pass the time of day without it being awkward. Him and my MIL are looking after Wee Man today while I'm at work too so it was nice to drop him off this morning and have another wee chat. I have noticed that they've finally taken down my wedding photos. It struck a bit of a nerve since they were the last ones I knew were on display but it was probably past time to take them down. That chapter of my life is closed and the future is yet to be written. Who knows what it may bring?
Thank you for your support for the mini marathon MsM. Unfortuantely, it was last Saturday and it was cancelled due to gales. Not to worry though, I'm not going to give up my running now as it's really given me the bug. I'll just have to make sure I'm ready for all the runs next season.
My crazy friend is still of the opinion that she's going to find me someone special. I've decided myself to stop looking though. I'm going to concentrate on enjoying myself with the hand life has dealt me. I have a wonderful wee boy with a birthday coming up in a few weeks, great friends, a good job, and an active social life. I'm sure things could be a lot worse! I have to discover ways to be happy being alone too. I've been feeling as though I need someone in my life to take away the lonliness. That's the wrong reason for having someone though. I first need to be happy in myself so that one day I may find someone who wants to share in my happiness - not be the cause of it. That's a mistake I made in my M. My W was completely responsible for my happiness and I need to be very careful not to replace her with someone who will be the same. Somewhere along the lines I've forgotten the DB rule that I am responsible for my own happiness. It's time to start living that rule again!
Life will never pass you by if you embrace every moment on the way through!
Kev
Me: 32, Wife: 22 Son: 2 Married: 2 years Separated: January 5th 2009
Sometimes you have to become lost before you can find yourself.
