Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I had the talk discussed above with her tonight. I took some of your thoughts gima. Kind of a "you know how I feel...I want to work on our family...I think things could be great..but I accept that you don't feel the same way and it's time for you to go..." type conversation.

"We need to talk about health ins, car ins, filing for D or sep..." Very hard conversation. I think it took some of the fun out of it for her.

I told her that I had hoped she would see the changes and it would e enough. Basically she has had such a hard time believing the changes because they seem like things I have been doing just to change her mind. More "you're just trying to control me" stuff.

I innsured her this wasn't the case and her line of thinking kind of made impossible to ever do anything and have it seen in a positive light. (everything I do is seen through colored lenses) ut it didn't really matter now since she had to go.

She seemed to leave the door open for the future in an odd way. She doesn't want to file for D yet. Just be separated.

More details tomorrow when not on phone.

Hard conversation but necessary. Thankfully there is still a lot of numness to get me through.