I know you are sleeping as I write this....maybe you are just getting up. I just want you to know that many of us here have felt (or perhaps still feel) the way you do about our WASs. It took alot of courage in order to put those feelings on the computer screen and press the submit button. Courage because you (excuse my lack of english vocabulary) got naked. You took off all the clothes / layers(or mask if you prefer) and just layed it out there. All that you feel...I know it touched alot of folks here (myself included) because we have felt those same feelings. Eventually, these feelings will subside....maybe come back sporadically as they do with me....usually during our D8 transfers. The sun will indeed shine tommorow....today...know that you are that light for your kids and many other people in your life....including your cyber friends.
