an2, I do anything in a western saddle. My mare has won a ton of local area awards but I've never gone for anything national. I've decided she deserves a national title....so we're on the road to hit the shows!
kat, gotta love the dogs! A couple Sundays ago H and I were talking after I got home from a show. We ended spending a couple hours together giving Dear Old Dog a bath and grooming. There's a first for us!
BM, that's not a 2x4, that's just calling it the way you see it. You see it pretty correct. Except you didn't mention anything about the changes there have been from H and you focused on what's wrong and none of what's right.
If I was to file based on all the wrongs H has done I should have done that long ago. It's still possible that I will tire of waiting and counting baby steps, but it is my choice of when or if I follow that well worn trail.
I have been pressing H for more - more answers, more talk, more financial answers, more socializing, more help. I said some pretty ugly things one night when more financial crap set me off. Sometimes he shuts down, sometimes he is more receptive. He says he has no plan. He says his only plan is nothing different. Someone posted to me long ago that I need to show or tell H what I want, not expect that he should know. I am doing more of that, and you can make a safe bet that H does not like it when I point out how he treats me different. Then he makes a slight change. Our whole time together has always been that my idea is at first rejected and then after time it becomes his idea and then it's a good idea!
FIB, thanks, that was very sweet! Do I enjoy limbo? heck no! but define limbo for me? I know H isn't going anywhere. I know he's more involved here this year than previous years. I know he holds grudges inside for a long time and he thinks I did horrible things to him when I first learned of ow. (no regrets by me for anything I did!) Is this still limbo as it was or do I have a direction but need more clarity?
Am I afraid to file? I don't think I am afraid. The word dread seems more appropriate and I don't want to drive the D wagon.
Something about me really bugs me. I hate how my body looks. I saw myself in videos when we took horses to a birthday party and gave rides. I can't believe that is me! I don't feel that fat! I can't be that obese! but the pictures don't lie. Yet it seems like the only time I can diet is in between meals.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
