Journalling.... I am so tired, its ridiculous. yesterday I came home at 5:30pm and slept until 10pm....and then went back to sleep at 12 or so....and woke up at 6am....and then again today, I was done early at like 1pm....and its amazing...I went to sleep from 2-5pm. I could still sleep. what the heck is wrong with me?????
Anyways, I am just glad to have some time off for a change. This month looks like I'm going to have some time....if I can catch up on my sleep and get rid of this constant tiredness....I can be a bit more productive with some of my personal things...
I spoke with H last week. He was in such a good mood.....he's very excited to "restart us and start fresh" Whatever that means. I said I wasn't sure that I was going to be much company and he countered with "We are going to have an awesome weekend. I am so looking forward to seeing you. I miss you. You have given me exactly what I needed - which was time to think. Thank you."
What the heck? I have decided to remind myself that I am just going with it. What more can I do at this point? This has to be a mid-life crisis. I just don't know what else to think at this point.
I am so tired of thinking about it and trying to make sense out of it. Its been so long since I have had a day to day interaction with him, I just feel like this is my normal life. On top of it, I have been so busy....I have a life that is totally separate from him. Its crazy. I don't need him. I don't need him.
This week I have a couple of things to do at work...but looks like an ok next couple of days.....and then have a long day on saturday. and then Sunday and Monday off. Then 2 more days and I go for my D.
I still have to come up with an outfit for the D...and the rest of the weekend. SIGH!!! I just want it to be over now.
So...not much new going on. I actually cooked myself a meal today! That was nice. Nothing more to report....I feel very dicombobulated!
