Well, this is my 'new attitude' since being diagnosed with a brain tumour. So! Ask yourself, "what would I do if there was a possibility that I could die from some serious disease?" And, even if not, time is ticking, and you and I are about the same age, so I feel that part of it too. There's little time to muck about with 'family' who clearly couldn't care less how you are doing (I have some of this issue too and I have decided to let it go and they are blood family). There is hardly any time worrying about OW and your XH (as long as they treat your D well, they shouldn't even be on your radar screen).
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Not completely trusting myself yet.
It doesn't matter if you trust yourself or not ---- experiencing things will teach you to do that, not sitting at home.
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He's rather left-brained, being a behavioral scientist and all...I think the numbers give him something concrete to hold onto!
Ah, scientists! Have you read "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch, a Professor (another scientist). It was very inspiring for me. And, it should be to everyone, whether they are terminally ill or not.
Find some passion in your life. Whether it be another romance or a new skill or even just new friends. Just go find some excitement in your life (of course, within your own personality and idea of what all that means). 'Cause it's just too short to linger, and fuss, and worry about things you have no control over. I know it will take a little time, but I hope the days that you let go of the bad stuff start increasing and the days when you worry about them dwindles into the horizon.
Okay, so that's muh message for the day.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
