Truth of the matter is when I'm really honest with myself...I'm scared sh*tless of the risk...I'm petrified to not be in control...
This is where your work resides. You need to learn how to come to terms and a balance in your life with NOT being in total control. This is work you can do *entirely* on your own, maybe with some serious reading and/or professional help.
But you need no help from her to do this work. In fact, help from her at this point would hinder you in doing this *necessary* work, without which any future relationships with *anyone*, including your children, are bound to be troubled or fail.
Character is doing the right thing when there *are* no guarantees.
"Show me a completely smooth operation and I'll show you someone who's covering mistakes. Real boats rock." -- Frank Herbert
