WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Sliver,

I'm sorry you went through the same crap.

I'm not sure if our situations are that different as when she realizes that I'm not buying her BS of denying it, she just stops denying but isn't out right acknowledging.

When I had first confronted her, I named 3 names of guys that I knew she was involved with and all she said was that she didn't do anything with guy # 2. Didn't deny for guy # 1 or 3.

That's how she has been in her communications. Although in this case, my eyes and ears were open enough to hear the message that she was sending. She did with guy # 1 and 3.

It really hurts and you are right, it really makes me sad thinking of my life without her. I do understand what went wrong, but don't see a way to put it back together. That's what pains me.

Going to the gym on Monday helped - running for a couple of miles and then lifting. Funny, I never was much of a runner until this year. Losing 30 lbs has helped with that. Guess I need to be thankful for the little things......

Thanks for offering your encouragement. It really helps.

I know it will get better if I allow myself to be better about it. I am glad to hear you are on that path.