Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Orich - I was reading your most recent post as you were posting to my board. Your sitch and mine have been on such similar paths.

I honestly have been talking about how every reconsiliation that I am aware of has had to undergo a seperation. Most for at least 6 mos or so.

I read so much about clingyness and neediness and I have to be careful here too. I never knew it was such an issue for women. I thought they were always looking for someone more sensitive and emotionally available. I've always tried to share my thoughts, dreams and fears with W much as it sounds like you have. I thought love is unconditional. W is supposed to love me forever. I shouldn't have to act like "Billy Badass" and try to impress her like I am wooing a 19 year old kid. I'm married to an adult woman who would appreciate me for providing, sacrificing, helping around the house, being a good father, keeping fit, and communicating thoughts and feelings with her.

I have learned though that just as I would appreciate her spicing things up with a little sweet talk, a fun night out (or in :)), etc. I should have been making more of an effort to be that fun and crazy guy (i.e. try to impress her) at least once in a while.

I guess unconditional love even has it's conditions.

This is an incredibly lonely place right now, but at least there is some movement. Just not the direction I had hoped for.