I've decided that this is good bye. After writing my last post I was reminded that H is the one who keeps walking away. He has problems - yes - but a two year separation after only being married for a year and a half tells me more than I want to face.
If he doesn't understand that walking away, whether or not he means it, is still a choice to leave rather than a choice to stay and work it out. He sees me as the enemy, not the safe haven - he wants distance rather than closeness. He keeps choosing to live apart rather than to work on being together.
There is nothing more that I can do than to let go and accept the inevitable - that my H doesn't want me. So be it.
Thanks to those who have supported me. I am in search of peace.
