Had a good day today. Emailed him some information about financial things- nothing R related. Now it's nighttime (always harder to deal) and am annoyed b/c he hasn't emailed back any response. I GAL during the day today but now I am lurking. He only said he wanted to come back after I told him how disgusted I was with the idea of divorce and that I wanted to put any filing on hold because I couldn't imagine not spending my life with him. He said he would move back to my state and get a new job and be with me to do MC, but I said he needed to first get his act together. He says "Love has to be nourished every day, or it will die" I disagree. I could go 2 years without seeing him and still feel the same way if I knew we were going to get back together. He can't go 2 months- a major difference for us. Since I wouldn't take him back immediately (he ALWAYS pressures for immediate action) he said we should just split up and be friends. I have moments when I'm ok with that and moments when I'm not. We don't have kids, so there isn't that reason to stay together. We also didn't have like 10 wonderful years of marriage to start out with like many on this site. It's hard for me to think that he will go through therapy, become a better person, marry some lucky b*tch and have tons of babies with her and live happily ever after, having learned such valuable lessons from me. I'm not proud to say it, but it makes me livid.
