I made my last post at the end of July. Things did not go well after that.
My siutation is a lot broader than my divorce. I am dealing with a general depression. So, at the beginning of August, instead of going on aplanned vacation, I hcecked into the psych ward. I spent about two weeks there. I got out in mid-August. The first week was fair, but this last week has been an ordeal.
Despite the support of friends and family and lots of prescription anti-depressants, I still feel very low most of the time.
I spend my workday in front of a computer, so the last things that I feel like doing is to be on the Internet. But, this little piece of journaling seems to be helpful. Maybe it's the dose of medication that I just took.
Anyway, there is nothing new or encouraging to report on the divorce front. I had to respond to her offer with a counter-proposal a week ago.
I think that I 'll go read some posts from other folks.
M 57 W 52 Married 12, Together 14 No kids by this marriage 2nd marriage for both
The depression has become a comfort zone that makes me miserable, but, for some reason, I prefer to remain in it. I know that there are steps that I need to take to get out of it, but I seize up when I attempt to make them.
I know that depression involves a series of choices. Why do I continue to make the depressed choices? Is it because of the pay offf? What is the pay off? Pity and attention from other people? That's not much of a personality to offer to others.
I am very tired right (again) now from the meds.
M 57 W 52 Married 12, Together 14 No kids by this marriage 2nd marriage for both
