living with the turtle

[cat04]

Things are going along very busy as is the story of my life. My biggest 180 in all of this has been making time for myself and I love it. Drained a little now because I haven't had the opportunity in the last few days, and now having a down hour, I should be in the tub or something, but I'm just sitting here quietly typing and enjoying the silence.

Mach,

I've missed your wisdom and 2x4's. Been thinking of a better way to answer your question than I have in the past but still not so sure if I can without saying too much. Sorry the vaca just went.... I know the feeling myself. But man you were at Disney, you should have had a blast either way. Have you ever been there at Christmas? Amazing. If I knew you wanted to catch a gator, I could have saved you the one from my back yard LOL. He was a baby though. Ok, bring some of your smarta** remarks this way and some smiles. You know, I do agree with what you said about how long. I think that is what I am waiting for as well. Just to act like adults.

FG,

Family of origin stuff is more powerful than people give credence to. That is why I have worked so hard with S. Just to make sure his life starts off on the right foot. I have been fortunate(?) enough to see/experience enough messed up families and witness how the kids turn out to have always known I had to do it differently with S. He will be ok. I am sort of glad he is old enough to understand, witness, and verbalize through all of this. He just had his birthday. Just got his permit to drive. Now I'm in for trouble. But ironically, MIL, sent nothing to S either. Not even an email. How is that for love? He is fine with it because he sees and knows. He is also becoming more aware of the people in my family, people that I have guarded him from, and seeing them for who and what they really are and he is starting to be able to really understand me more. My overprotectivness, my feelings about certain things, my roots. Roots he didn't know existed before because he didn't need to know those things existed at the time. Now he can process and understand and it is an awesome thing to be watching him go through all of this. My son is an amazing kid, that is for sure.

Ok, gotta run to the grocery store and pick up the kid. Soon he will be driving me (Oh God please help me).