Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

she is in the driver's seat. that's for sure.

I have been taking more time with my son, family, and friends. It's nearly paralizing to think of missing out on a huge majority of the rest of my son's childhood.

When I ask W what she wanted for our marriage her answers are exactly the things that I want now. I just want a chance. A chance to show her who I can be. Who I am now. She just can't get past the past.

We still haven't tried to put it all together. Her reasons change regularly. Generally a variation, but sometimes they change a lot.

I know I can only control me, but it's been a really rough day.