You really need to give her space and time to live her life. You originally put her through the ringer, told her you didn't want her and so she HAD to move on. That's going to take a loooong time to get over. The rejection is going to hurt for awhile.
Let her have her space while you get yourself together and start doing those changes you keep mentioning.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
