Well today after managing to give myself a swift boot up the bum I finally got going! Was in a pretty fragile way though, got my ironing done and checked the accounts for it to have been significantly reduced, H had managed to spent £215 on top of the £500 pounds odd of bills he had paid and there was only a bit left, I was so upset as it just made me feel that he was doing the ME ME AND ME again with little or no regard for little old me, I just wanted to hibernate but managed to pop my jods on to go off and ride madam, had a lesson today which I had been so looking forward too but now felt really low and was wondering where I was going to get the get up and go to make the most of it, madam gave me a lovely "I know you feel crap mum" nudge and reduced to me tears but good old british stiff upper lip I managed to pull it together and then go on and have a fab lesson and achieve some really good stuff.
Left the yard a little better in spirits intending to do some gardening although couldnt do the trip to the garden centre as not sufficient money! The afternoon wizzed by and just as I was about to go out it started raining so I decide to finish off the accounts.. H had lunch out with son & girlfriend, then had chinese, did shopping etc and I hadnt spent a bean, although thankfully the shopping at windsor had been a bit dull and the only thing I needed I was between sizes so still have to wait to shift a bit more weight!
Had a lovely evening with son & girlfriend and was pleasantly surprised that son cleared the kitchen up while he was waiting for the ice cream to soften bless him. On checking my email this evening, was message no one for H, dont forget its a Bank Holiday so I will probably get paid a day late.. Why didnt you think of that when you paid all the bills without asking what I needed. Second email WE seem to have spend quite a lot of money what bill have YOU paid that I dont know about..
MY REPLY Why do you assume I have spent it all? I haven’t spent anything since Friday and only £30 today! Perhaps you should add up how much you spent on Saturday that would give you a clue! Although there does seem to be some missing still!
Maybe not the best reply but at least honest and not accusatory but I have had two glasses of wine tonight, maybe I should have waited but how dare he accuse me when Im being sensible and he is behaving like a singleton totally forgetting his wife.. I saw my sons face tonight when I said I still love him and would wait till he saw sense (maybe wrong words) but sons face said I had a long wait..
He has done it again four days in a row brought me down when I just managed to pull myself up.. Im not sure I can this anymore without losing it with him.. Advice desperately needed!
Last edited by Lost Rabbit; 09/01/0908:11 PM.
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