Putting Out the Fire with Gasoline...

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Okay. Finally, I have a chance to catch up a little.

Had a great weekend. Had a BBQ and pool party at my house on Saturday. It was a blast. We all had a good time. Sunday, did some housework, made Pot Roast and a dutch apple pie.

On Friday, ExH was supposed to pick up K from school. I hadn't talked to him in two weeks. It was nice. Anyway, at 4:30 I called and she was still there. So, I told the teacher that I was on my way and I picked her up. I didn't call ExH or anything. I just figured...maybe he forgot again. And, this time, and by the way everytime...It's not MY responsibility to make sure he is taking his visitations. So, I picked her up. Didn't call him. Took her home. She went swimming. About 5:30 he calls and asks me where we are. Duh? I tell him at home. "Okay, I'm on my way to get K". So, I ask why didn't you pick her up from school. He tells me he was running late. That's because he and OW and her kids went to San Diego for a mini vacation. I heard later that it wasn't that great. OW said it was just ok. GOOD. So, AGAIN, K isn't THE priority. I'm getting used to that. I don't make any effort to go the extra mile for him anymore. I'm soooooooo over it. He comes to get her and she is wet. I said, "I'll be right back. I'll go get her some clothes." He hands her to me and says, "Just take her upstairs to change her." So, I do. He follows me. I should have known. Well, it so happens that my nephew is upstairs in my bedroom playing playstation. He says "Hi Uncle ExH". I start changing K and I notice H walking into the double sided bathroom and he is going around the corner to the other side. So, I wonder...what is he looking for and I ask "what are you doing?" He doesn't answer. So, I go to see what he is snooping around for.....well, there he is with his penis sticking out. For the love of God. My 9 year old nephew is around the corner, so is K AND I really don't need to see his penis....I've seen it many many times. I was pissed. I just walked out.

The man is a creepy sometimes.

So, he brings her home on Sunday. NO nudity or advances this time. But, Kendall kisses him goodbye...like four times. He says "I love you baby see you in two weeks." I can't even imagine not seeing my child for two weeks or even hearing her say Mama or anything. So, he drives off and she is reaching for him and saying "dada". I had to turn around because I wanted to cry so hard. I just pray to God that she will be okay emotionally without him being a part of her life so much. I just pray she'll grow up without Father issues or feeling abandoned.

I hate him. I just don't want her to ever hurt or feel like she isn't as important as her brother whom he lives with full time and had when she was only 9 months old.