WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

I'm processing all the disgust from last nite's call and the few seconds I heard her voice this morning. I'm easing down as talking/emailing my friends is really helping.

Ultimately, I do feel I've done everything I could to bust this divorce. I can accept whatever the future will bring and will be sure that I am ready.

As expected, she hadn't emailed a response nor do I expect one will ever come.

I do know I need to focus on me and the kids. I did go to the gym last nite to run and do some lifting. I couldn't really concentrate though on lifting so I cut it a little short before I got hurt. I know I will go again today as it helped clear my head and take some of the edge off.

I'm still torn on how to handle this Monday. I know I will not give up my Sunday on 9/13 as I will NOT just see my boys for 1 day that week.

Any thoughts?