Yeah, what is the deal with the craziness, the fog, the distortions. My H attributes all kinds of crazy stuff to me that just isn't true.Like the way whenver H comes over, he yells and criticizes about somthing - inevitably. The other day it was the computer chord knocking a picture off his desk - another time it was a spot on the carpet, another time it was that I didn't close our garden gate carefully enough. H attributes this to my "carelessness, lack of awareness," or that I just don't care, or that this indicates somehow that I'm an irresponsible parent. It's so far off base - all this blame.
Also, for the three sessions of MC he attended, he said all he wanted to talk about was MY VOLITILITY. But he is the one acting irrationally out of anger - EVERY TIME WE ARE TOGETHER - WITHOUT FAIL. And H said My issues with sex were the problem - BUT HE HASN'T TOUCHED ME FOR YEARS - NOT EVEN A KISS HELLO OR GOOD BYE. I mean really, how can he be so blind? How can H really walk into therapy and say MY two problems are the only problems? This makes me so insane - sometimes I wonder why I am the only one trying to get this M back on track. Why don't I just leave? The pain is unbearable sometimes.
