You landed in the right spot given your situation. This forum and the people participating here are a godsend. I'm a bit new to this to offer advice but I can tell you two things. 1) Forget about the things you've done over the last few weeks. They won't make or break you in this, and 2) There is hope. Find comfort in that, hold your head up and stand strong.
You're about to get some support and guidance from some awesome, smart, caring people and you're going to put it to work.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09