WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

I sent the email that my lawyer suggested this morning. I do have a call with him this afternoon at 4

She called me within minutes of sending the email

I answered to make sure it wasn't an emergency with the boys. When she told me she wanted to talk about the email, I told her that I couldn't talk and please reply back via an email

Not sure if that was the wisest move, but I got just felt so disgusted that I didn't even want to hear her voice.

Crazy part of it was my heart used to skip a beat and it would bring a smile to my face when I heard her voice. Now it brings so much pain.

I need it to stop....

I actually don't expect her to reply via an email and expect her to call tonite, or not respond at all.

If she does call, I will be an ear and let her talk. When she is done, I'm planning on just saying that I've heard what she said and I have to think about it and just hang up.