Stronger..Thank you! Thank you for that. I wish I did not let my anxiety control me as I think a lot of the fear exisists in my head. I have low self esteem so it makes this so much harder. I do not think I am worthy of his love. I do not think I am good enough for him. It is not that I am really dependant on him because I take care of everything...I just want him to be afraid of losing me for once. You are right..if they are in love there is nothing I can do about it. I can worry all I want but that will not change things. I am going to start posting here more because the support and encouragement I am getting from my friends and family I think is overwhelming to them. I have so much fear. If I could let go then I think I will be okay but I am afraid to let go because I am afraid #1 he will not want me #2 our family will fall apart. I am afraid he will think I do not love him or I do not want to try to save the marriage and just completely give up. Fear..it overwhelms me.
