Tuesday morning: Went for a short walk this morning. My knee is still swollen from Saturday's soccer match, so running would be a little too painful. The air has been crisp these last few days; it is feeling like fall. The walk was relaxing. Everyone was still asleep when I got back, so went up to get ready.
W walked in the bathroom as I was getting out of the shower, she stands there briefly. W: "May I have a hug." M: <Deep Breath> W: "That's OK, I understand." M: "No. You should hear this. It's something I have been discussing with IC." W: "You don't want to send me mixed messages?" M: "No. I shouldn't feel like I need to compete with OM." W: "You're right. You shouldn't." M: "It is demeaning to me and I am a better man than that." W: "You are." M: "It doesn't mean that I am not willing to work on the marriage. It's just all part of working on myself." W: "That's fine."
She then turns to start getting ready. It didn't seem to have much impact on her, but it did feel good to say it.
Also, I forgot to mention that in part of the discussion yesterday W mentioned that she "doesn't feel grounded" and that she feels "like I am floating". I am not sure how to interpret that; I guess it is similiar to discussions where she has said that she is a "lost soul".
