I see what you are saying about the holiday not being all that but for some reason I am pissed off about it - perhaps more than that, I am jealous and angry with myself for being jealous.
I keep telling myself to trust the process, patience and all that as it has worked in the past but I get more angry with myself for still caring than anything else. I am trying to put it out of my mind but I do at the same time need to deal with it. I am so hard on myself for feeling things all the time. But then if I do feel it, it is not fun.
On the plus side, I had a wonderful weekend with my brother, SIL and niece. My brother is always so fun and such a lovely brother to me and my niece is just a little darling. I know I am biased but she is so cute. She just smiles and smiles and is at my favourite age where they can sit up but not crawl yet.
