Thanks Oz - I am a firm subscriber in listening to what your body is telling you and whilst I find the subject interesting, I'm not all out for it but I appreciate your kind thought!!
These two dreams are the only ones that I can remember in the past 3 months, since the bomb, and so that may be why they are so interesting to me now.
Just thinking this morning that I should perhaps give up and listen to what H is telling me. He's not interested. There's been nothing from him and I keep thinking of all the warning signs over the years that neither of us paid any heed to.
I can see why he has gone (50-50 blame however - his 50% being the catalyst to my reactivity) and although I have been accusing him of PA, I know that he did nothing about that prior to dropping the bomb. Maybe I should just listen to a man who is desperate and not at all in MLC (??) - maybe I should be just gathering up, moving out (when I have work) and becoming self-sufficient - letting go and let him have the life that he so obviously yearns for.
Maybe he really does not love me any more and I just need to accept that. He's a genuine and honest man - why am I doubting him, his words or his actions???
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
