Man the Doc has entered the twilight zone............ Wife is being nice....she seems happy... She may be happy because the end is near. She might be nice to me because she knows I have had enough. Not sure why and I am NOT going to try to figure it out. Like I said she is being nice to me but has put forth ZERO effort to work on US.
My quasi "councilor" wrote me today and said:
"She's damaged, wants out, and wants you to be the one to end it. It doesn't have anything to do with the other man. She's just lost, wallowing in guilt if she has a conscience or drowning in drama if she doesn't, and needs to be led to the exit door. It doesn't have anything to do with your present state, and she won't be happy with anybody else, including the other guy."
I am not being sarcastic when I say my wife has mental problems. I think all of the DB tactics might work in a normal sitch. But I am dealing with a woman who acts normal in every way until it comes to us. I know I have said this many times but I really think I can go through with it now. The only thing I am sad about is that my son will not have a “normal family life” but I did not do this to him. In fact if wife though of our son Half as much I have in what actins I was going to take we would not be here right now. She Threw our family away for one night of lies. I have worked to keep the family together for over two years so now marriage wise I have nothing left to lose.…
My quasi "councilor" also wrote
That XXXXXXXXXXX tune is the worst kind of depravity. It can be taken two ways. It either starts with self-immolation and evolves into self-validation in spite of having done wrong, or else it's a suicide poem set to music. Either way, it's sick. CXXXXX BaXXXXXXXX is a pretty sick Goth individual; he did some of the music for "Queen of the Damned," one of the movies from Ann Rice's "The Vampire Chronicles."
Take a break while you're gone, and when you get back, tell her that she has the choice of being a wife or being divorced, and whichever one she's going to be is going to be decided in that moment and will begin in the next, and that it's not an ultimatum at all; the two of you have just come to a crossroads and she's going to have to decide if she's walking the path with you or without you, because you're done living as you have been, and it's time to fix it or end it. No more drama, no more deliberating, no more talking about it, no more you doing everything to try to bring it together while she does nothing. Do, or do not; there is no try.
Enough R talk.. The reservations have been made. I have been working on the jeep cleaning it up for my “Farwell tour” in Washington..(Leaving on the 10th of Sept) I plan on trying different things and maybe smoke some funny things think about making love out by the lake to my favorite song Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow Singing Sweet home Alabama all week long
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
