K4D Rising #4

[june72]

Kevin, I have a weird perspective on the whole entire divorce thing. I am totally against it. Hated that my parents divorced, hated being their go-between for conversations, hated that they said negative things about each other to me, hated the custody fights and have to live two different places.
But my GOD! Did love to finally not hear them fighting and screaming at the tops of their lungs every single night as long as I could remember. It was a joy to not see my mother crying hysterically and see my father sitting in the living room with all the lights completely off smoking a cigarette in the dark in furious anger and depression. It was a total joy to not tell my younger sister to comfort our hysterical mom and I would "take dad". B/c dad was the scary one. I would talk to him and say "daddy, I think things are going to be ok" and he would say nothing. Scared the cr@p out of me.
The was one episode of violence that we did witness (dad choking my mom, pressing her against a wall). It was only the one time but can I tell you the eggshells we walked on!!! My sister and I were so very happy their marraige ended.
Again, really truly- I am supper glad they ended. I also wish that could have managed the entire situation better.

I think that some marriages HAVE to end.
I am not giving up on my marriage- but there are certain situations where if would be definitely over for me. Without a doubt.
JMHO


Ironically- about 16 years later- a few months b4 my dad died they became happy friends again- who would have thought it!