Thanks MMF. You know for the first time in probably a year I prayed on Sunday night. I felt so low and really at rock bottom. When I woke up on Monday morning I was a different person so who knows maybe He is still there for me. Those of you who are more religious than me will probably wince at my next statement but I did feel like He had abandoned me just like so many others during this terrible time.
Kat and Andabelle thanks for your good wishes.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
I am so glad you felt like a different person on Monday after praying. I am not a particularly religious person myself --- more spiritual! I have found so much solace in prayer and meditation.
Hope ya have an awesome time in Bruges (did I spell that correctly?).
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
I am not an overly religious person and don't believe in pushing my beliefs on others. What I think happens during those times that we thinks He leaves us, is really that our faith has waivered. We always want the answer to be yes, but sometime the answer is no. He is seeing the big picture and thus knows which path to send us on. We, however like rebellious children, think we know what is best. We aren't able to look at the big picture. So perhaps we throw a tantrum but in the end when we are ready to "listen" we will hear which way to go.
I am sure not everyone will agree with such a simplistic view, but it gives me peace. Everything will come together in good time.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
ACJ, I think the feeling that He wasn't there is normal. I know that He promises that He won't. I know that I have ignored Him at times.
I don't know if I am religious. I think today that connotation means more wrapped up in the formalities. If it means "faithful devotion", then I am trying.
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God
As many of you know I've discovered the therapeutic benefits of craft during this turbulent time.
I decided the other day that I am going to make a scrapbook of my personal growth. It will start with my graduation, it will even include mention of my recent dating experience as even though it crashed and burned really quickly I did learn an awful lot from it (and although I say it myself I looked very hot in the dress I bought specially for the date )
I'm going to do this so that I can see for myself how I continue to grow.
Court case on Tuesday.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
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