this is all out of order i guess but its in my head so I will just post it as it flows out
she has it in her head that i will just take her right back. I have told her i wont. ive made it clear i want to spend time with her and thats it nothing else
so later when she was leaving she mentioned how she was going to jail and how her stuff that was left over like clothes can be thrown out. I said well I will be your friend when you get out too. she said yeah if i dont push you away by then. I said why? and she said idk i guess i keep doing that
earlier she says "I know you want more but i only want to be friends... I dont want anyone right now. I dont want anyone close to me because I need to go through this alone I dont need anyone to count on"
she refered to me to night as the old___ and new____ I was a bit shocked because ive changed sorta but not really like the DB says if anything I have gone back to the way I was befor all of the bad stuff. you know just me i dont really care what she does but i care about her.
she pissed me off a bit the way she talks about OM like he is some great guy even though they arnt togeather. which is how we got into the conversation on the new/old me.
she said I was controling befor I asked how and she said well you told me what to do and when to do it. WTF??? I always thought because I was like do what ever I Dont Care. so im confused what the heck she is thinking
says thats why she cheated because I was controling (I said well had i been controling how would have you been able to cheat? you had time to do it because i did just the oposite) she says thats the past and makes no differance on us now (another WTF?)
Me thinking... it has everything to do with us thats how we got to this point.
