UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Hi Cas
Counsellor didn't say too much about me being dark. I guess that yesterday's session was supposed to be about my self-esteem and why it is that I always put people first (typical of a nurse, eh?). She was interested in why I had taken that option and that I responded that, for the time being, this month is about ME and not H. That seemed to satisfy her as she smiled!

I commented that our one hour session goes so fast and she is looking to do a two hour session with me in a few weeks. I find it so liberating to be self-centred for the time that I am there and I like that she challenges me on things that I normally like to push under the rug! I have also started to ask questions of myself and she finds my insight refreshing, I guess. I 'brainstorm' and I take things along to her that I have written - mainly lists.

I don't feel that I am moving very fast with her but I do feel that I am slowly starting to weed my 'own' garden, if that makes sense! I would recommend a good counsellor to anyone right now, however unsure of it one may feel. It's really helping.