Today I started getting prepared for seperation. Opened a new checking account for myself. Cancelled cleaning service because I won't be able to afford it anymore. These are really hard things for me to do, but I need to do them to move forward. I am holding off on stopping W cell phone service. MIL still uses her phone and I do not want to turn it off on her.
Its been hard today. But in a different way. It isn't: "oh my god how am I ever going to live without her" anymore. It is more: "How can she do this to the girls. And life as a single parent is going to suck. And am I going to have to stay in this town till D3 turns 18?" That is where I am today.
