Divorce not busted 3

[Orich]

I'm trying. I really am. It is very difficult. Truth be told I was doing better before. Every time a new bump appears it seems I fall off the wagon. And, as I get closer to this retro weekend, it gets harder to get back on the wagon. I really do feel, however, that if I don't feel like W is making an effort during and after the weekend, I will be able to harden and stand up to her and call her on her attitude. There are times, fleeting as they are, where I feel I would actually be better without her. Maybe they will be more prevalent then. Someone hear quoted the following:"A soldier isn't good until he realizes he is already dead" or something to that effect. When all seems completely hopeless, then I will do a better job. That's not to say I am not trying now. I didn't flip out as a result of some of the things she did recently, and I have cut myself off from contacting her or initiating conversations with her.