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[mishka422]

I finished my A-Z list for the C for tomorrow. It was supposed to be an "I like myself because I am (or will be)"....A-Z descriptive words. Honestly, the majority of what I came up with I don't really believe about myself but I couldn't just leave them all blank. It was far too easy to come up with negative words for each letter, but positive ones were nearly impossible. I know that's "stinkin' thinkin'" but it's the path my mind is always on. That sucks! Writing that list just felt like a total lie. I loathe lying (gee, what a shock huh? ) so instead of making me feel any better about myself it just made me feel worse. Is that what's supposed to happen?

I don't know if I'm going to continue C. Not because of this exercise only, but because I just can't afford it. Just these last few weeks has completely destroyed my budget. It has added to my stress level a lot. Isn't that the antithesis of what I should be gaining from therapy?

Crazed at work. I did manage to take this coming Friday off. I asked for the weekend off from the supermarket too, but being a holiday weekend I probably won't get it. Couldn't hurt to try though.