Trust me I know the feeling. My stbx not only will not admit when he is wrong, but is stubborn, hard headed, and has convinced himself this is the best thing. Of course, almost two years later, I am tending to agree with him.
Yes, as time has gone by, I have found myself starting to look forward to the split that my W wants and that I have fought so hard against. The thought of not living with a negative person who clearly doesn't respect me as a person, much less a spouse, has a very appealing feel to it.
On another note, I have a delimna that is building. I have been adamant through this process that if anyone moves out it will be the W. She violated the marriage afterall. This means that our two girls would still live with me, but obviously spend time with her as much as possible up to 50% of the time. We have not yet sat down together and talked with the girls yet. Recently, within the last 2 months, our oldest D who is 12 has suddenly fell head over heels in love with my W. It concerns me how she is going to take it when her mom moves out of the house. I also find myself getting a bit jealous about this. I know this is wrong to feel that way, but part of me is screaming inside, "I am not the one who has torn this family apart, I am the one who has bent over backwards trying to save it to no avail, yet I am the one who feels on the outside looking in." It has gotten to the point where I have even thought that maybe it would be better if I moved out instead.
