In this farewell There's no blood, there's no alibi 'Cause I've drawn regret From the truth of a thousand lies (the I love you's)So let mercy come and wash away
What I've done, (I got married) I'll face myself To cross out what I've become (My Wife) Erase myself and let go of what I've done
Put to rest what you thought Of me while I clean this slate With the hands of uncertainty So let mercy come and wash away
What I've done, I'll face myself To cross out what I've become Erase myself, and let go of what I've done
For what I've done, I start again And whatever pain may come Today this ends, I'm forgiving
What I've done, I'll face myself To cross out what I've become, erase myself And let go of what I've done
What I've done Forgiving what I've done
Just wondering...........
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Yep, I know that song. That was "my song" for awhile, too. DOn't underestimate the guilt she feels and the uncertainty about your relationship. What to do now......that's what she is thinking......
I'm sorry and it may just be me but she herself admits that I am (was) doing 90% of the work on our R. Could it be she feels guilt at what she did but still wants out?
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Journaling, Strange days……..I guess I have really never “detached” until now. Looking back I said one thing but acted differently. Great example after wife moved out of our room I went out and bought some picture frames and placed pictures I had on my computer of wife and at different places in them. I always bothered me that she never had a picture of me at her desk at work or in “her office” now her bedroom. Guess it’s a love languages of mine not hers. Anyway I replaced the pictures of her and me with pictures of my son and me, Another strange thing I noticed is that sad songs about breaking up, cheating wives and so on have not made me sad. Now songs about “moving on “make me happy. (Ok Bon jovi’s you give love a bad name I still like) My reservations for Washington State are made. I was thinking today how W trusts me. Or is she? Anyway if W told me that she wanted to go away for a week (ESPECIALY TO WASHINGTON I would tell her sure but don’t plan on coming back. I will be hard for me to ever trust her again. She is going camping with her cousin the week before I leave but I KNOW she will be with her cousin,
Some good new??? Well my uncle bought me a dump trailer to use for my wood business. ($4800.00). Now my jeep was not set up for trailer brakes but since he spent that money I had to go get trailer brakes put on the jeep. Remember I am NOT working. At least for money right now. They wanted $350.00 to do it. Well I started looking at it and was able to do it myself for only $70.00 Back to my R…………Wife has been nice but she will not discuss us. I don’t know what her problem is. I have not had a discussion since the “separation” one but still it’s almost like she either wants ME to be the one to end it or she is living in a fantasy world. Like a reverse vampire. During the day she is a mother and my wife but at night she changes and goes back to her room. BUT I am not worried about that anymore. I will try to discuss a little about our R over the phone while I am gone but I don’t think I will get very far… So ok this is a long stretch and I am not saying it because I want to do it but…. Does anybody think that my wife thinks she would like me to cheat on her just so it would not make her feel / look so bad? I swear sometimes it feels that way. Well got ta go its bed time for this old man.
You need my love baby, oh so bad You're not the only one i've ever had And if i say i wanna set you free Don't you know you'll be in misery They call me (dr. love) They call me dr. love (calling dr. love) I've got the cure you're thinkin' of (calling dr. love)
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
It was 1989, my thoughts were short my hair was long Caught somewhere between a boy and man She was seventeen and she was far from in-between It was summertime in Northern Michigan Ahh Ahh Ahh Ahh Ahh Ahh
Splashing through the sand bar Talking by the campfire It's the simple things in life, like when and where We didn't have no internet But man I never will forget The way the moonlight shined upon her hair
[Chorus:] And we were trying different things We were smoking funny things Making love out by the lake to our favorite song Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long
Catching Walleye from the dock Watching the waves roll off the rocks She'll forever hold a spot inside my soul We'd blister in the sun We couldn't wait for night to come To hit that sand and play some rock and roll
While we were trying different things And we were smoking funny things Making love out by the lake to our favorite song Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Now nothing seems as strange as when the leaves began to change Or how we thought those days would never end Sometimes I'll hear that song and I'll start to sing along And think man I'd love to see that girl again
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Little diffent that my wife's right?
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
On the wishing you would cheat thing - absolutely, been there, heard that. It would make being crazy a lot simpler if you could just get the rest of the world to buy into your dumba$$ crazy agenda, wouldn't it? But we know better! Hang in there, friend!
Thread #10 22 year M, MLC, Piecing since 1/07 Goal: Live with confidence & enthusiasm!
