Divorce not busted 3

[Orich]

Stuck,
I get so many mixed signals from her that I don't know which tactic to take. Most times she is non-communicative and even kinda avoids me. Yet once in a while she will start to talk to me out of the blue about nothing. She used to always make eye-contact with me when she was talking on the phone like I was part of the conversation. SHe rarely does that now, but again, once in a while she will.
That first thing you wrote scares me because you could be right. The thing with the facebook really threw me. I haven't said anything because I am waiting for our Retrouvaille weekend. Some of my family who were removed said they will ask her why she did it. She will have to directly answer them.
You are right, I haven't fully detached. She still makes me angry and upset.
I want to communicate more, but I am afraid of pursuing. I want to know where she is right now about us. A few weeks ago she said she didn't want to hurt me, now it seems like she is intentionally hurting me. It really feels like something happened between then and now, and I would like to know what. She feels my parents are avoiding her and not babysitting like they used to. She said they will sit when she is going to IC, or MC or something related, but won't sit when she wants to go out with her friends. She is partly right, but instead of talking about it she holds it in and then makes a comment while talking about something else.
She is cutting herself off from my family, and they more than anything want to have her back in their lives. She won't be convinced of this mainly because she won't talk about it, and I am not pushing the issue because it might be pursuing. It is maddening, really.
I was off last week, so I went out a couple of nights. Otherwise it is difficult to go out, I have to be up at 4, and weekends we still spend together as a family and I don't want to break that up.
I try not to show any emotion to her at all.
The only thing that I think would be different or opposite would seem almost vindictive. Going out without telling her where, not being home when she gets home or something. I honestly don't know what to do right now. She has stated a few weeks ago that she didn't want to break up the family. I guess what I am hoping is that if the Retro weekend helps her to open up a little bit and begin talking, we can start trying to repair the M.
I don't contact her anymore at work unless it has to do with the kids. I will continue not contacting her. THis week I will be going to the gym at night again. SHe continues going to her IC who I believe is urging her to move on. But again, she won't discuss it with me.