DO NOT email him.

You need to get respect back from him. It's been 4 years. Are you willing to continue putting your life and happiness on hold for him?

Take the control back. Do not contact him for anything and you'll see what kind of response you get.

Get some self-respect for yourself first and then decide if he deserves to have you.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER