W has been complaining of stomach pain and bad cramps relating to her monthly cycle. Yesterday she went to lunch and a movie with her sister and friend and told me afterwards it was painful to eat. Later I asked if she could eat dinner and she said no. I cooked for me and the boys. She said she is making an appointment with her gynocologist. I am having a hard time determining how much to empathize for her or help her. SHe has always had a hard time physically and mentally during these times, in fact, her gynocologist is one of the doctors who felt she needed to be on an anti-depressant. She is always moody having severe mood swings. Just yesterday she was one minute all sweet and playing with my younger son, and then literally flying off the handle yelling at him for something trivial. Her mood swing could explain her removing me and my family from her facebook. When they started calling me asking why she removed them, I said to ask her directly, see how she explains it to them, not through me. We'll see how that goes. Anyway, today is my first day back to work after my week long vacation with my boys. It is going to be a rough day. I am tired and feeling pretty low, and I am supposed to work overtime today. I brought my bible in today, I am reading the book of Job. I hope to get something out of that. Oh, and another thing, last night my brother called me to tell me he had been removed from her facebook, and also just to catch up. He called my cell, W heard it and said what is that? I told her it was my phone and then answered it. I talked to him for twenty minutes. She was in the kitchen, I was in the living room. When I was done, I passed through the kitchen and told W I was going to bed. She said OK. I think she was curious who was on the phone, but regardless, I didn't offer any information. This is part of detaching for me because I always would tell her who I was on the phone with automatically just as habit.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.