It's been a while since I posted on here, mainly about trying to save my marriage. Recently I have been seeking "support" through internet dating (said in a tongue-in-cheek way) but I wonder if I need to do some more constructive work on myself again. I'm not sure where to go from here.
Yesterday two things happened - I ended a fwb-type relationship which was both unhealthy and wonderful - what I mean is it felt wonderful, but really I know it was unhealthy. I am gutted, because deep down I wanted to be in a relationship with this man but he didn't want to be in one with me. Secondly, I went for a drink with another guy I met off the net, and spent the whole night talking about my marriage or ex-related topics.
I appear to have lost my identity and was wondering how I start to become a person in my own right? Also is there a way to make oneself feel better without resorting to dating?
Thanks for listening...
HC
Me:36 M:16 D final: 08/09 Ds:10&5 Ss:8&3 Bomb 3xPA 200 sexual encounters 15/06/08
