Thanks Nel, I am sure H is having a major MLC! He has gone from being the worlds sweetest man to well as you said an alien. He was my childhood sweetheart and it is killing me to have such little contact with him when we have spoken every day for nearly thirty years, and I just cant believe he isnt missing me, but he has successfully built a brick wall to hide behind and when I see him I feel like I have chipped a brick off only for him to have successfully relaid it by the next time!

In the two and half months he was here after his announcement of "I dont love you anymore" we made love three times although the last time was purely under the statement that he had "mans needs" Im sure he loves me still but is scared to go back to being unhappy again, and has persuaded himself I am the cause of all his unhappiness, I have asked for a another chance as I told him the last thing I want is for him to be unhappy.. Ironically all the things he is doing now, losing weight, buying his own clothes, joining a rambling club are all things I encouraged him to do but he couldnt be bothered too when we were married.. The things he did start doing after his heart attack three years ago he is letting drop slowly although they are his passion!

As for me this weekend has been crappy, he spoilt my lovely day out (my fault I know) and it wasnt nice to go out have a lovely evening and come back to his email, and now today I just didnt want to get up and have another long day which is ruined by him, except the cat thought otherwise, although I have returned to my bed enjoying the luxury of surfing the net. Later I will go and ride my lovely horse and get some fresh air. I have plenty to do during the day this week its just the evenings that seem so long and are hard to fill.

Last edited by Lost Rabbit; 08/31/09 08:40 AM.
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H 47
M 24
T 30

Once lost but now found and happily married again!