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[ginab1966]

Well, we are all registered for Retro on 9/18. We'll see how it goes. I'm playing phone tag with the woman who contacted us regarding information for the weekend. I hope I get to talk to her soon because I have a little list of questions that I wanted to ask.

I think I'm making some progress and doing much better. See, I am still on the brink so I'm DB'ing and piecing all at the same time. My biggest "win" was my convo with hubby the other night. He was being pretty icy and came out with the fact that he is feeling smothered. I guess (truly I didn't realize I was doing this) when I would pass him in the hall or go by him in any room, I would touch him...reach out and touch him. I would sit with him each night and watch TV...whatever room he was in, I was in. That's because he was reconnecting with me the week before and I just got a little carried away. He said that the week before wasn't as much of a connection as I thought and he was really doing the "fake it till you make it" to the hilt. Felt sorry if he was giving me mixed signals and I said "I had no idea" that it wasn't genuine and that you are feeling smothered. He said that I couldn't possibly know because he wasn't communicating his emotions/feelings clearly until right now. He said he needed space and needed to just be left alone. INSTEAD of falling apart I said "Although that disappoints me, I understand how you are feeling completely and respect your need for space". I got out of bed, let him go to sleep and came downstairs and did my own thing. This weekend I've jsut let him do his thing and haven't really touched him once except a goodnight kiss last night. We had a great day yesterday and today. Laughing, doing things around the house, playing with daughter, etc.

I'm hoping that I can continue the play it cool attitude. I'm reading a lot of Beatties books on Co-dependancy and really trying to keep a level head. I'm also coming on here a lot and reading and reading my DR book too. It's like a bible now.

Thanks for listening. Thanks to all of you for being out there and being just a great sounding board. I wish none of us ever had to be here but I'm so glad we have a place to go.

Gina B