I looked at the "piecing" forum last night and saw that a lot of the folks there are experiencing many of the same emotions that I am - mostly anger and RESENTMENT surfacing, and we now question ourselves if we really want to save our marriage after all of this.... Another poster said it's another rollercoaster - just a different one.
Just as I thought - another chapter.
I'm not ready to start posting there yet - maybe soon.
Past few days have been good still. She still says she's "on board" with all of this. We plan to meet this weekend and talk about finances - we'll see what happens after that.
I have learned that RESENTMENT is the most damaging of emotional states. If you're resentful (and I was) , nothing is too petty to resent. And, resentment always winds it's way, in one form or another, to your spouse...no matter what stimulates it in the first place! So, even though my resentment had nothing to do with my spouse, it inevitably turned against her, and drove me to devalue the most important person in my life.
I'm just saying...
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.