I really want to get rid of this 24x7 feeling that I've got to throw up, or that I'm going to start shaking. Just little things like the odd heavy sigh, and rubbing my head while driving, W picks up on and asks if I'm OK. Well, more than that, I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to sleep through the night. I want to be able to give a genuine smile.
I know there's a path in my head to this place, I just need to find it.
I still wanted to grab her and hug her this morning, it took a force of will to not do it.
There's a version of me that is self-reliant, confident, resilient. I need to remember that guy.
Well, we're going to the state fair today. She's making scones for breakfast.
