Just reread your thread, I think you dealing with H very well on the the day to day stuff. My suggestions would be:
-stop the R talks!!! On any level! There is no point cos he doesn't have any answers yet, he is still processing. Come up with a few lines to shut him down, don't say a word, change topics, don't get drawn in! I know you know this, you do it sometimes, but try a bit more too.
- try to take some more of your power back. You are not lucky to be with him. When you look at him, think he is damn lucky to be with me, if I choose to continue to let him! Again, its happening sometimes, keep working on it.
- Have you got some standby activities for the bad days? My garden is currently getting majorly attacked to get me through those days / thoughts, its physical activity, kids can be around and it does not look like I am storming out of the room.
I know you are probably coming here when you need to vent or feel down like most of us. Keep looking for the good in each day and just keep taking the next step.
