last night called wnating 2nd chance saying all the things he will work to change, told him if he wanted to see me he had to come to me, he started driving but after 2 hours I knew i'm not in emotional state to be with him. told him to turn around. he was devastated. i think we should just say for us that we love eachother, want to be with eachother, but it won't work without so much pain. for us, maybe love is letting go. thats what i emailed him. it makes me feel better to split as friends who will always love eachother than me hating him forever. i can forgive.
