Well I wasn't calm at first, but I took steps to calm myself down. I guess that is a silver medal instead of a gold, but still a win.
The thing is after he left tonight, I just felt so awful inside. I wonder why sometimes I am hanging on to a man who yells and criticises me so much. It hurts enormously.
I guess I figure he's not perfect either and I married him so I'm going to try my best as long as I can. It's so hard to stay calm in the face of constant criticism and anger however. It just doesn't feel like love and I lose hope sometimes.
