2il! Good to hear from you! Was wondering how you were doin!
Have you moves, or your H? How are the kids? Didn`t want to take this over to your thread in case you`re wary of posting there now.I understand of you`d rather not answer too.
Up early here this am because of gum pain!Low grade and I`m taking pain killers but grrrrrr!On top of everything else!
I do find Cat that pain of any kind can lead us to a worse place for dealing with all other crap so its easy to over react at these times. As if living with the crazy beast is not enough pain in itself.
Mind you my crazy guy is not home! This is a second night away God knows where! Hadn`t said he`d be away two nights and hasn`t texted either. No, I`m not worried if he`s lying in a ditch somewhere calling for help....
I`m really trying to stay at a point of forgiveness with all of this Cat and 2iL.I must read up more about Gandhi and his passive resistance thing. He said something about realising our foes are doing 'what they believe is right'.
Our spouses believe they are right or they wouldn`t do what they are doing.I think if I try to get into H`s skin I`ll begin to understand more. I`ve literally lain, where he lies, sat where he sits to feel this and look at the crazy woman he has to put up with!
Its not about humiliating me, blaming me, and having me grovel to get him back. But about me staying soft enough to let him go or come back easily, and hard enough to set boundaries to protect myself and the kids.
Some crazy theory I`m trying to sort out in my head-and heart.
Meditation and prayer help lots.
Oh and getting a good nights sleep without this damn neuralgia would be just great...
