Journaling,
Strange days……..I guess I have really never “detached” until now. Looking back I said one thing but acted differently. Great example after wife moved out of our room I went out and bought some picture frames and placed pictures I had on my computer of wife and at different places in them. I always bothered me that she never had a picture of me at her desk at work or in “her office” now her bedroom. Guess it’s a love languages of mine not hers. Anyway I replaced the pictures of her and me with pictures of my son and me,
Another strange thing I noticed is that sad songs about breaking up, cheating wives and so on have not made me sad. Now songs about “moving on “make me happy. (Ok Bon jovi’s you give love a bad name I still like)
My reservations for Washington State are made. I was thinking today how W trusts me. Or is she? Anyway if W told me that she wanted to go away for a week (ESPECIALY TO WASHINGTON I would tell her sure but don’t plan on coming back. I will be hard for me to ever trust her again. She is going camping with her cousin the week before I leave but I KNOW she will be with her cousin,

Some good new??? Well my uncle bought me a dump trailer to use for my wood business. ($4800.00). Now my jeep was not set up for trailer brakes but since he spent that money I had to go get trailer brakes put on the jeep. Remember I am NOT working. At least for money right now. They wanted $350.00 to do it. Well I started looking at it and was able to do it myself for only $70.00
Back to my R…………Wife has been nice but she will not discuss us. I don’t know what her problem is. I have not had a discussion since the “separation” one but still it’s almost like she either wants ME to be the one to end it or she is living in a fantasy world. Like a reverse vampire. During the day she is a mother and my wife but at night she changes and goes back to her room.
BUT I am not worried about that anymore. I will try to discuss a little about our R over the phone while I am gone but I don’t think I will get very far…
So ok this is a long stretch and I am not saying it because I want to do it but…. Does anybody think that my wife thinks she would like me to cheat on her just so it would not make her feel / look so bad? I swear sometimes it feels that way.
Well got ta go its bed time for this old man.

You need my love baby, oh so bad
You're not the only one i've ever had
And if i say i wanna set you free
Don't you know you'll be in misery
They call me (dr. love)
They call me dr. love (calling dr. love)
I've got the cure you're thinkin' of (calling dr. love)

And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know