It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Well, I went to the wedding reception for one of my dance teachers today. He remarried his ex. They've been divorced 9 years. I'm not sure if I ever mentioned it before, but I met H at a wedding reception.

I was fine, up until they did a dance for all the married couples during which they kept having people leave the floor as they kept going up in years married, until the longest married couple was dancing alone.....they had been married 50 years! And I realized that I will never have that. Even if I re-marry, the cances are slim that we would both live to almost 100. I'm just not that healthy. I cried all the way home and I wanted so bad to call H.....but I didn't.

When I got home, my neighbor was having a little "party" in his garage. He had some family members fly in today from Minnesota. Well, I went to get my mail, and my neighbors cousin came over and started talking to me. I was in my skirt and heels and he was really flirty. He was very drunk (as were all the guys in that garage) but it was flattering and I really appreciated it right then. My neighbor knows about my sitch (he and his wife caught me on a bad day last year and was very supportive). When my neighbor started talking to me about it and how I was, his cousin piped in with "It's his loss!" for which I had to thank him.

My sister is in town from Indiana and tomorrow my mom, sis and I are going up to dream property to get my things that are still up there. We will also do some wine tasting and go to the casino. H is up there with GF now but is leaving around noon. I told him I wouldn't be there until at least 1pm. I have NO curiosity to see GF......none at all!!

And the beat goes on......